The "TWILIGHT ZONE" (Penthouse, Caribbean Model and D's updates and the introduction of Mr. Douche)

The semester is over and I have been putting in the hours at work, I leave for Asia in less than two weeks and I have bills that need to be paid before my trip. I'm soooo excited 15 days in Asia. I think I'll spend the rest of summer either in the Caribbean or Florida upon my return.

Penthouse and I finally got to hang out a few times, WHAT A DOUCHE!!!.
Such a douche that his name is now "Mr. Douche".

"D" did tell me that Mr. Douche is always with the ghetto of ghetto black women at events and an introduction with me should knock all of them out of the box.

Yes I saw his attraction when we met and I was very attracted to his penthouse,
I mean the view of central park is one of a kind.

That first evening I met him after class......I was exhausted & menstrual but we have been trying to meet up for so long I figured I should check things out.
I wasn't that comfortable but I blamed it on my period and called it a day.

The second time I saw him when I enter his penthouse , he had all the lights dim and was on a "business call" . When he finished he poured me a glass of wine and proceeded to talk about himself on and on and on....... I zoned in and out of the conversation quite a bit, actually reminiscing about fun times with "d"....( I know I know sucks to be me but I realized I might still have feelings for "d", but what can I do...huh?)

Between my "convo in's" and "outs", Mr. Douche made his way much closer to me and starts groping me and tonguing me down, I was soooooooooo not into it....... he started telling me where he would love my pretty lips go and how good he is with his tongue....I was like WTF is going on here..... I felt like I was on an episode of the "Twilight Zone". I stepped up my charm and shot him down nicely and in no uncertain words I told him he needs to relax.

Douche didn't try to romance me , he was like lets just get straight to the point. I don't work like that I'm sorry. I was mega turned off and insulted, He made me feel cheap. When I left I had no intention on seeing him again, ever. I was also little pissed at "d" for putting me in a situation like that.

What impression did "d" give that douche of me, that he thought his actions were OK?
We were in contact a few times after that but we never got together.

I just blocked the whole incident out of my mind, I realized some men are used to certain types of women and only like that kind of woman.
Look at Bill Maher, he dated COCO...WTF was that!!!!.
Superhead was the only tasteful sista he ever showcased on him arm and you gotta respect her gangsta. But in general he likes the raunchier side of the sista's.
(Google him and see the type of arm candy he walks around with).
When I Google Mr. Douche, he has similar taste and I can't be mad at that, I am just not that.

I was a little sad, I had high hopes for Mr. Douche.
I have to be romanced, spoiled and made felt spacial ... I AM A LADY not some common whore.

I started hanging out with the Caribbean model a bit more, he made me feel better ya know.
I swear I just like looking at him, I even took the weekend before finals off to visited him three states away. I let him run the show for a bit . With finals coming up, I just needed to be told all the right things at the right moment.

Of course he started pressuring me for a relationship, saying I love you lets get married....blah blah blah. I went along with it for awhile, he facebook 'ed that we were in relationship and I accepted it. I mean it's just facebook, that or at least that's what I thought.

That's when the drama started.
Girls, Girls and more Girls, they were coming out of the woodwork's..like termites.
This wasn't fun anymore I had to adjust my settings on facebook to make it much harder to find my profile until this shit blew over.

They were even some rumors of a him being with a SHEMALE.
I almost threw up.
I'm not into that shit and my name is not about to be tied up in this FOOLYWANG according to theybf.com. That's all I needed to snap me back into reality.

I need a cleanse first, I felt sick and my life was spiraling out of control, this usually happens around finals but not like this!!!
I was spiritually and physically sick.
That's when I visited my favorite store in the east village,where I buy my fresh herbs for my baths amongst other things. Increased my yoga sessions to 3x's a week, shut off my phone, finished my finals and meditated on what I truly wanted out of life.
Seems like and ongoing regimen of mine doesn't it.

A few weeks later, heading to an appointment with my stylist for a long over due makeover, I got an email from "D" , no mention of what happened with Mr. Douche what so ever, so I'm not sure if he even has a clue. Both of these fools were in Shanghai at the same time so I'm sure the saw each other.
I don't know what was said but I am dying to give "d" a piece of my mind.

His email wanted to know where I was ?
I told him I was busy.
He kept insisting that I drop whatever I was doing at the moment so I could see him. I asked what for? It was obvious something was stressing him but that's not my problem anymore , he moved and baby mama has a huge 6 bedroom home upstate.

His answer was " Pure Passion", right about know I'm like FML, I have no control over anything, and MOFO's are just "Bright and out of order" .What the hell was going on?

My fuse was short and I just e-snapped on his ass.

I told him I was not his call girl.
Don't call me when his plans fall through or his dick thinks of me.
I told him he moved on , so let shorty you "wived up" listen to your problems and give you that "pure passion".

"D" and I have too much history, I warned him not to take advantage of our friendship.
He apologized, and said I was greatly appreciated, since then "d" has been trying his best to get face to face contact with me, I just wasn't in the mood.

I mean tell m if I'm wrong, but if he appreciated me so much why doesn't he show it huh? We have the chemistry and the "passion", its hard to find that in an SD/SB relationship. Why doesn't he show his appreciation by setting me up in one of his luxury NYC apt's.

Make my stress level a bit less, like I do for him naturally.
It's not like we just met, and he can't trust me .

I'm pissed as all hell and he should stay out of my line of fire right about now, but he keeps insisting we met up.

Two days ago he asked me to dinner later this week so we can speak, I agreed.
I don't know what he has to say to me.

If he says anything I don't like, it's over.!!!!!
I'm cutting him off, if he pushes my buttons ...I'm declaring war.

I am not that "in your face" type.
I'm like so non confrontational, but like that saying goes " A close mouth, won't get fed".
If he wants me, he needs to put some work in and show me, we have a 7 year friendship going and I'm tired of just being there for him, shit changes or he has to go.

until next time guys......